Friday, June 27, 2003

hmmm...actually i dun really have much to say...so it's just gonna be a free flow of ideas & thoughts... =)
It's really amazing what the night can do to one...i dunno why, but every night, i seem to become totally at peace with myself...no longer that Vanessa that u see...i guess that's why inspiration only comes at night huh?...hmm...just realised the stars are out tonite...not many people know this abt me, but i do enjoy star-gazing...i guess some of it rubbed off from my bro...he enjoys star-gazing too...but he's not like me...i'm the kind who would walk to the window and stare at the sky for hours...while he, would rather just wait for eclipses & meteor showers...maybe that's why the telescope belongs to me huh...

while i was watching tv today, a new idea came to my mind...or rather, would i say, a new element to add to my story...if u wanna know what it is...just gotta wait for it....haha...seriously, i'm not the kind to write this genre...but i guess it must have been the atmosphere that got me writing it...well, it was about to rain...and it was cold, gloomy...(that figures the setting...)....and perhaps my past experiences kinda set in on me...intially, i had only wanted to write a short paragraph...sth like just chpt 1...but the inspiration just kept me writing...n i ended with so much...talk abt inspiration...anywayz, i figured that the story shows a very different side of me...i guess the more emotional & (would i say, romantic?) side of Vanessa...instead of the rigid, perfectionistic one that u see everyday...

i received a call from [YH] today...and i dunno why, but the call really upset me lots...i was like going "ya...ya...ya" over the phone...i mean like...c'mon...so many meetings in a week?!?...not to mention, the week that sch opens?!?...who in the right mind...i dunno...but that's how i feel...when i was on the phone with her...i just somehow wished that i wasn't an exco member...even the templates...we agreed that they be tentative...and if no one listened in the meeting...i said at the end of the yr...after my 'O's...now, whch part of that is do u not comperhend?...i'm not like u guys, ya know...u guys are like gettin' L1R5s that will get u into a JC...n are still complainin' that it's not good enough...while i'm gettin' a L1R5 that gets me to nowhere...like i need to study...and yet, u guys are still pressuring me...wth...one is buggin' me abt the shirts, the other, abt the blazers n other, abt some stupid templates...forget it...dun spoil my mood...

well...i think i've let out enough...it's back to the nice, old me...haha...anywayz, i dun really have much to say...just that...my kor is doing the quiz now...n i feel really bad abt leaving him alone to talk to himself on MSN...so...i better go bother him liaoz...haha...tata...
lost ~no angel~ at 12:34 AM