Wednesday, August 27, 2003

"But the fruit of the Spirit is love,joy,peace,patience,kindess,goodness,faithfulness,gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law."

ok....Vanessa Hee here is supposed to be doing anything else besides being online n typing this...*oops*...but well...didn't study much...as usual...i seem to not have anything to do nowadays...besides doing maths, what else do i do sia?...hahah...realised that i've been sleeping in the afternoons...must be sth to do with my sleeping late...been sleeping at ard 1+ ...no wonder i came down with the flu n sore throat...no one else to blame...haha...

kinda realised that as the prelims close in, i've become more sensible n well, hardworking?...haha...at least i try to study...but everytime i get tired n feel like giving up, i just ask me myself..."how much have i studied today..." and always end up answering..."yes, i may have studied quite a bit..., but there's always someone out there who put in that bit more effort..."...therefore ending up in me continuing to study...haha...

come to think of it, i've kinda come to terms to studying...considering i never did sit down to study like that in Pri. sch...kinda have found the joy in studying...weird...i've seemed to become much more studious...haha...maybe tt's why my mom allows me to sleep in the afternoons now...haha...

today's chapel was really relevant...speaker was speaking on "Study to Excel" ...took the verse from 2 Tim 2:15....popular verse that my sch uses... "Study to show thyself approved unto the Lord, a workman that need not be ashamed"...ok...this is not NIV version...well, the speaker was saying that God cares about our studies as well...because Studies, Life and Work go hand-in-hand...they're just like 3 inter-linking rings...if u take away Life, there'd be no link between Studies n Work...n it'd be like having no Life in Work n Studies...i guess i could see his point...

well, in the Word of God, it says to "Study"...i guess God doesn't want us to just study His Word, but also to study, in the literal sense...n this verse very much serves to remind us that we're not studying for anyone but ourselves!...we're not studying for God's sake, nor our parents, nor our friends...but for ourselves!...if we don't study now, then we'd be nowhere when we reach the end of the road...no trophy waiting at the end of the line...but if we tried n out in our best, then even if there is no trophy at the end of the line, there'd definately be supporters of ours waiting at the end of the line...it's better than not having anything...

well, after today's chapel, i don't know what got into me, but i just felt that although i'm already putting in effort, somehow, i have to put in that little more than others...all due to last yr's slacking...i guess it's very much a cause n effect kind of issue...one cause = one effect...cause: slacking too much...effect: results that are not satisfactory...way to salvage: put in that little more effort...

i don't know...but i was just thinking today...i feel like a totally changed person...not just because of what was shared during today's chapel...but just cause of everything else that's going on around me...i've very much learnt to let go of things...and focus better now...i don't know how i can do that...but i guess i learn sth new abt myself everyday huh?...neez...this entry is getting really really long...haha...didn't know i could write so much...better complete at least the compre today...still got that photoshoot tml...it's gonna be a long day tml...think i'll sleep early tonite...(only prob, i dun exactly keep track of time at night...anyone wants to keep track of it for me?...*haha*)...neez...end here...tata...Shalom....Agape...

lost ~no angel~ at 10:07 PM