Monday, June 14, 2004

ok, i had actually typed a much much longer one...but...oh nvm...here's the rough idea of what i had previously typed...

well...i think i'm quite fortunate cos i'm able to pursue my dreams...i mean, can u imagine not being able to pursue sth that u love n so passionate abt?...it's difficult, isn't it?...i was watching tv today...n there was this ad from the NKF Childrens' Medical Fund...it featured a girl who was suffering from cerebal palsy...it showed some scenes of children running around n playing...but she couldn't do all that...n the ad said..."Suffering from cerebal palsy is tough...but treating it is even tougher..." ...i don't know abt u peeps...but isn't it sad to know that a young girl like her cannot live her life like a normal child?...it's going to be difficult for her to go thru life suffering from cerebal palsy..

was thinking abt things today...(ya i know...i said i wouldn't think that much...but bad habits die hard...)...it's a known fact that there's a shortage of volunteers in sg...alrite...maybe some pple can't afford the time to volunteer...but surely...there's a way that one can help, rite?...it's kinda sad to see that when blood drives/campaigns are held, the organisers have to give gifts to new blood donors...i'm sure there are that small grp of pple who do it out of goodwill...but still...

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when i was thinking today...i realised how much i've grown up...i used to be afraid of entering poly...thinking howdifferent it was from JC and sec sch...but...it's not all that different afterall...n that time when i was suffering from lower back pains...i suppose it was a blessing in disguise...cos when i was suffering from them, i did some reading up it...i was afraid that they were more than just mere back pains...at tt point in time, i had let my tots wander...n when i recovered from the pain, i'd learnt to appreciate the things ard me better...
*shrugs shoulder*...i guess it was that close brush with the worries of death n paralysis that me so...

ok...on to a topic that i hardly talk about...LOVE...yepz...i hardly talk abt it except to my really close frens...i'm surprised at my ownself actually...i used to be that girl who used to be easily jealous...but now...perhaps it was my pre-decision abt Love in one of my previous entries...it has influenced me alot...i look ard me ( not for guys....but at pple ard me)...n i'm glad that many of my frens have found that special someone in their lives that they can rely and count on...although i still do feel the heartache in me...i've come to realise that sometimes things in life don't go the way we want them to...but as long as the other's happy...it doesn't really matter...

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To all my really close friends....

Thanx for listening to me when i'm in that whiny/thinking too much mood...i know i sound harsh n ...perhaps somewhat insensitive when i'm in that mood...n it seems as if i dun take in whatever u guys tell me...but trust me when i say this...at the end of the day, i do listen to what u guys have to say...i really thank God for allowing me to meet all of u who helped light my way when it was dark...i really appreciate u guys for being there when i needed all of u...n i hope that just as u guys were there for me when i needed u guys, i would be there when u guys need me... =)

To my angels...

Faith
Pei
(u two nvr fail to bring that smile to my face...faith, come back soon...pei n i r waiting for u to come back...so we can hang out!...pei, thanx for all ur advice...)

EK
TW
(i'm glad i met u two in my life...u two always were the ones i could talk to with no qualms...)

LK
AZ
(i'm sure God had a plan for us when He planned for us to meet in K2 n again in sec sch...after 6 yrs of separation in pri sch...well get thru poly life together!)

SQ
PL
(u two have been the best...thanx kor...thanx PL...

last but not least...
WL (thanx for always listening to me, n giving me advice...U've nvr failed to bring smiles to my face...esp with our silly senseless fun of ur roommates...haha...)

To all whose names are not mentioned, please don't blame my heart...blame my head...u guys are still my angels!

before i end off...

here's a song dedicated to all of you...

I Think Of You

When I'm down and all alone
When nothing seems to matter
When I lose my hope
When I'm sad and confused

When it all gets turned around and 'round
I can't seem to reach for solid ground
When everything I've believed in seems untrue
All I have to do

Chorus
Is think of you
I think of you when its gone
Like you chase away the storm
and Making it all okay
I think of you
I think of you when Im strong
And I know I can go on
Its like you set me free
When life gets the best of me
I just think of you

Now I know what love means
And whatever life may hold for me
Through the fire
Through the rain I believe

Cause there is nothing I can bear
Knowing that you will be there
If I fall I will break
Through it all Ill make it through
Cause all I have to do

(Chorus)

And when I think I'm all alone
I can see the way to go
Lost in the rain of my own tears
To wash away the pain and fear

(Chorus)

For the good times and the bad times
I just think of you
Cause you know you get the best of me
I just think of you

lost ~no angel~ at 12:59 AM