Thursday, August 12, 2004

I could never forgive myself.

Just as the rain fell from the sky, tears fell from her eyes. There she sat, by the window, wondering why she did what she did.But it was too late for any regrets, for she knew she could not longer find the courage to even face him. She felt unworthy to be called his friend, or for him to think that it was all right to be friends again. Deep in her heart, she knew that they could no longer be the friends that they once were. Perhaps it was just her own thoughts that startled her, or perhaps it was the loud thundering that sounded through the sky.

Wiping her tears away, she made a decision - a decision that she felt would hurt no one any more or longer, a punishment to herself. Call it escapement, call it selfishness. She wanted to step out of his life permanently in fear of causing more problems in his already stressed-out world.

Staring out into the dark and gloomy scene, with the raindrops pattering against the window, she looked down into the street, wondering if her decision was going to be a wise and right one. It was the best she could come up with, and certainly but hopefully, perhaps the best solution.

No one could tell her what to do, or what to say. All she wished for, was for someone to hold her, and wipe those tears that fell from her eyes, telling her that everything was going to be okay.

But all she felt and saw was - Emptiness.



lost ~no angel~ at 11:53 PM